复活

隔了那么久都没来更新哦。
因为。。。有点懒惰。
其实还蛮多事情要分享的，看看之后自己还想不想再去更新更新那些东西咯。
嘿嘿嘿：／

终于考完试了，所以特地来更新一下。
大家好，我还活着哦（没死），哈哈哈哈哈哈。
而且，已经脱离半死不活的状况。

我正式宣布，我复活了！

鼓掌鼓掌，谢谢大家。
哈哈哈哈哈，我想我疯了，就这样，拜！

Epic fail speaking test

Epic fail.
I didn't know what I was saying.
Maybe it just nonsense.

I didn't know what I was doing.
And for what I was doing this.

Epic fail speaking test :'(
I couldn't answer that question at all.
Same goes to my friends:/
What are we going to do?
Feel hopeless:'(

Never ever:'(

I knew that you may didn't mean it.
You may treated it as a joke or just said it out without thinking of others feelings.
Or maybe you really meant it.
But I cared and I felt ashamed of myself.
I will never do that again.
Never ever.
I will never forget that sentence you said.
Never ever.

Sad Quotes Collection:')

So, here's the collection of sad quotes that I saw in different posts by different people or pages in Google plus.

"With the right music, you either forget everything or you remember everything. "

"We were all afraid of monsters until we grew up and became them. "

"When you can tell your story and it doesn't make you cry then you know you have healed. "

"Just because you miss someone, it doesn't mean you should go back to them. Sometimes you have to just keep missing them until you wake up one morning and realise that you don't anymore. "

"Sometimes you stop talking to someone, because you keep telling yourself that if they wanted to talk to you, they would. "

" I hate getting to close to people because when I thought they would always be there for me, they eventually leave."

" People leave without reason, and it's okay. You don't have to think you did something wrong. You don't always do something wrong. "

" People cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long. "

" Some days, you'll feel sad without knowing why like you lost something very precious but forgot what it was or you miss someone you never met. "

"But things work out, you know. Even if it doesn't feel okay for a long time, or even if it feel like things will never be okay again, everything work out in the end. "

Even though life may be sad, but life is beautiful. There are so many sad quotes which are touching and relatable, but there are many nice quotes which are motivational too.

Sometimes we feel so much but we don't say a word. We're screaming inside but we can't be heard.
Life are made up of different elements.
Injuries may be hurt, but at the same it makes people remember that they are alive.

Hope you guys like this collection of quotes:D

舒适生活

真的觉得过得太舒适了。
应该说我选择过得舒适。
其实该想的东西又很多很多，但是一天才上几个小时的课。
一天24小时，我选择忘了那几个不好的小时。(=逃避现实)
就觉得自己太幸福。
幸福到有点堕落，可悲。

花多点时间在课业上有那么难吗?
花的钱可不少啊。

说真打从开学至今都没觉得有上学的感觉。
就像那天我看见的一句话:
我原本像休息五分钟，却不小心休息的一整年。:/

我真的觉得自己完蛋了。(如果这样下去)
只是我没那个力气起来，还想再休息一下:(
累啊，舒适却心虚:'(

The story of earphones:-(

I never appreciate my lovely earphones.
I always thought that if it got broken then I would get a new one.
And yeah it have broken now:'(
I am damn sad. Regretted. I should be appreciated it.
The old one is the best. *Crying*

I got a new one few days ago.
It wasn't the type that I like but I will tried to accept it as long as it could function.
But it have broken now.
Damn. Stupid. Cheap. Shitty. Earphones.
Crying for my money.
And the most important thing is I regretted for not appreciated the old lovely earphones that I used to have.
I want the old one the old one the old one.

*A Sad Story*
Once upon a time.
Got a new earphones and got broken.
*The End*

Reborn

I think it's the time.
It's exactly two months over.
It's the time for me to reborn.

There are two reasons that preventing people from happiness.
One is living in the past, another one is observing people.
I have been standing still for quite a while and observing other people's life.
I am an audience of people around me watching them living well with and without me.
I just wanted to keep my brain empty and do nothing.
I just wanted to spend my holiday doing nothing.
I have myself surrounded by memories which are nice and also bad.
It's ENOUGH I think.

How are you? I think you are fine.
I am fine and I should be fine too.
I am no longer in your life anymore like you are in my memories.
I am not going to live in the past anymore.
Maybe goodbye did means goodbye.
I remembered this feeling that I used to have once ago.
Keeping everything in my heart and thought it would be forgotten when time passed.
Injuries may be forgotten but it still pain.
In the end, it worsened but after that I seemed to get through. Like finally haha.
This time would be same like last time?
I wish it would.

I believe everything will be okay in the end if it's not okay then it's not the end.
Therefore, what the reason for us to think and worry about things that perhaps won't be happening?
Right?

I have to live for myself.
I am a person who want and will be studying ACCA! (copying Luffy's style :D)
I am going to start my college life again:D
Saying goodbye to my holiday and the old me haha.
Busy life, busy me.
New life, new me.

音乐相伴

以前曾很喜欢一首歌曲，真的很喜欢。
我也不懂是不是因为那个背后的故事。
就曾经很喜欢。
那个歌词和歌手都很棒。

不过后来再听见一样歌曲的感觉竟然完全不同了。
经历了不同的事情后，那歌曲怎么听都有着淡淡的悲伤。
越听越影响心情，哈哈。
那却偏偏想听，想看看自己是否会免疫。
变态心理不停作祟。

后来应该可以算免疫了吧，不是忘了那淡淡的悲伤感，而是习惯了那感觉。
就不会有太强烈的特别感了。

但其实有很多很好的音乐同样给着一样的感觉。
听着听着就能让自己处身当下，感觉自己在唱出自己的人生或感慨。
有音乐相伴不让人孤单。
静静时，烦恼时，难过时，疲累时，孤单时，任何时候都可以听一听，然后就能雨过天晴了。

有音乐真好:)

感慨地说

K了两天的歌。
今后，应该就窝在家里做条虫。
好好的过完这短暂的假期。

在这些日子里好像发生了不少事情。
其实我们都在不自不觉中不断成长。
回首看见的是陪伴着我们的朋友，家人，音乐，还有另一个自己(比自己想像中更坚强的自己)。

会留下的，终究会留下。
会离开的，终究留不了。

很珍惜认识的所有人，因为我们曾经是朋友。
不管以后如何，谢谢我们曾有的曾经。
谢谢你，曾在我回忆里。
不管回忆是好坏，我也很感激。
或许说得很牵强，但会留下的终究会留下。
我还是相信的;-)

2 more to go

This month I have to sit for four papers and pass it all to complete my foundation course.
Done 2 and 2 to go.

But, there is a bad news for one of the papers I have done.
I didn't know how to do at all.
Therefore, I sincerely think that I may fail it.
What to do? Can't do anything:/

There is 10 objective and 6 subjective in that paper.
Okay, I am not confident to my answers for those objective questions.
While the subjective one are the killing part, I really didn't know how to do it.
There was one question asking us to prove the answer.
I knew the answer should be zero.
However in the proving process, my answer came to be 10000++.
OMG I didn't have anytime to redo it and other questions still blank and waiting me to write something.
So, I simply wrote a silly conclusion.
I wrote something like the ans of 10000++ is approximately to be zero. Therefore it's proven.

What a silly answer?:P
HAHAHA.
Please. Let other questions save me.
I have to pass btw.
The results will be out two months  from now.

Fell asleep:D

In the class of our cute lecturer, I fell asleep.
Hahaha. I fell asleep.
I like him very much and also his class.
Perhaps I was too tired, therefore I felt sleepy when listened to his voice this time.
I tried my best to open my eyes and I did saw him looking at me.
I thought it should be alright and I closed my eyes a few times for rest.
I can't controlled my eyes but the way. Lol.
Then he asked us whether we understood or not like usual.
So, I nodded my head like usual too without thinking anything.
However this time his question was '*my name*, understand?
And all my other friends felt so weird since this lecturer won't asked like this usually.
Hahaha, he must be looking me sleeping there. Haha.
I was surprised by his question because suddenly got people called my name. Shocked. ~T_T~

And I just answered my friends, who asked me, that I slept just now.
Hahaha, too tired maybe:P

Break

He said maybe we can take a break.
Since we are both so busy with our own stuffs, at the same time distance is ruining this thing.
The thing which I want and try my best to maintain it well.
I can't described what is my feeling right now because I don't really know.
Not sad and not happy at the same time.
I just hope that the break will be useful for us.

Both of us are so confused but the way.
Maybe this decision may be good for us.
Perhaps we just run away or what, I also don't know.

Just have our break and continue our life;)

May

Like what she said.
We couldn't run away as we open our eyes in the morning, it is first of May.
Ya, I know.
How would this month be?
Only left this one month to study for our final exam.
Hope that our group study plan will work.
Hope that the case of studying until accidentally dreaming can be prevented.
Lol.

Can't believe that now is the May of 2015.
While I still hope that I am in 2014 at the time I just started my foundation.
2015? That means that it's almost reach the end of my foundation.
Ya, I am mentally and physically not ready for further studies yet.
But.....
I am here and time won't stop for me.
I have no choice but continue to walk.

Perhaps I need to be more positive thinking.
As the same time, I want to appreciate the friends around me because we would not be the same intake after this.
I am so happy to meet with you guys.
I am glad to having group study together and helping each other make me feel energetic.

There is one more happy news in May.
For this, my May will have a great great start.
So happy. Hehee.
Thank you!!!:D

Hope this will be a great month in 2015.

I won't

Please return what you have taken from me.
I don't want any replacement because there're a lot of things that couldn't be replaced.
You shouldn't take it because it belongs to me.
Mine stuffs. Get it?
My memories which belong to me. Get it?
Why are you so rude for taking other people's belongings?
I told you before don't repeat the same mistake again and again.
I have forgiven you for so many times.
But it doesn't mean that I wouldn't get mad anymore, this time gonna reach my limit for you.
This is the third serious time for making me so sad.

You are so terrible.
Why you knew that memories were so important for me yet you wanted to take it away?
Away from me, why?
And you took everything, why?
Took everything which no belongs to you.
Do you know for making someone super sad, that person will remember clearly for the whole incident?
And now I can tell you I will remember it!

I won't forgive for this time. I won't.

回到母校#2

又回到母校啦~
那儿还是和以前一样热，哈哈。
这次是学院要我回去的。
说是要感谢母校对我的栽培和随便做一下宣传哦。(有小教育展）
我都不想去，很丢脸勒。

告诉你们哦。
以前的校长好像不都不了解我们为什么来啊。
还捐钱给我母校。
那钱应该给我嘛，哈哈。
不然校长不妨用那钱装多点风扇，哈哈。
还有没人看我们给校长支票，好像宣传效果不佳哦。
校长好像都不大要理我们的。:((((

在那有看到学弟、学妹们。
原来还有学弟记得我的名字，不可思议耶。（以前有过快乐回忆）
还有一个记得我的老师，这数量够了。
反正我没什么存在感的，而且要低调。
我也不喜欢被认出。

就这样结束了我回母校的一天。
其实还蛮想念以前的老师，但没机会看到他们。

For now;(

As I mentioned last time, I promised to work harder.
We promised.
Are you very busy?
Please rest well at the same time.
Don't over tired please.
I feel that I am lost and I want to find myself back.
Perhaps I am the one who over thinking, perhaps you are fine and we are fine.
But the way, I am fine?

I am in my own world.
Finding my way out.

幸福之旅

一起去了马六甲参加比赛。
四人一组的队伍。
原本不是很熟或根本不认识，现在熟透了。哈哈哈。
一起吃喝睡聊走看买笑拍。
虽然很累，但很开心。

虽然没赢得比赛，但学了很多。
至少我们成功进了半决赛，哈哈。
已经非常不错了。

不懂明年能不能再去，我们会变更好。
一段旅程换来一段好友谊。
我们四个里有两个以毕业foundation, 而我和其中一个马上也会毕业。
那么没意外的话，四人能一起读degree哦。
友谊延续，不断。

还有在这段旅程里，去了很多地方。
买的东西不多，但做了彼此想做的事。
我很开心哦。
平时都是想而已，但没真正做到。
这次做到了，我是幸福的小孩。
还帮他完成了他想做的事。
他脸上的笑容，如可爱的小孩看见很多的糖果那样。

如果可以，我还要再参加！！！！
幸福之旅😉

Promise

We promised each other that we wanted to word harder.

I tried my very best to study for the exam because I hope I can do better than last time.
I did put in effort and it ended up with crazy answers in the exam paper.
I simply chose and wrote.
Can you believe it?! Simply wrote yeah: (
That's not my style.
And I didn't like it.

Feel so down.
Perhaps my effort was not enough, I need to work more harder.

After the exam, my friends still remained the same. They played their phone and laughed like usual.
I didn't know they just didn't care about the exam or they are very optimistic.
But, I have to become better like I have promised.

We must motivate each other.
The feeling of studying together with someone make me feel more energetic.
At least when I feel like want to give up, the promise we made always remind me that someone out there is doing the same thing too.o(^^o)

A beautiful day :)

I wanted to remember that beautiful day.

When I woke up, I thought of my homework and him.

When I sit in a moving car waiting to reach my college, I saw beautiful sky and tree that made me felt relax.

When I reached college, instead of completing my unfinished homework, I chatted with my dear friend.

When we went to computer lab, we were playing around and no lecturer was with us.

When the class ended, it ended earlier then it should be because that new lecturer didn't know that lecture still have one more hour.

When we have our lunch, we have been charged good and services tax, so we ate super super slow to enjoy our meal until the maximum.

When we went back to class after lunch, my friends were playing and chatting around but I didn't join them because I wanted to complete my homework. I felt that I needed to complete it!

When the class started, lecturer discussed the homework and I marked my work not copied the answer! I felt great and I almost forgot that beautiful feeling. I wanted to keep that feeling in mind because that was the motivation I needed. The motivation, which I mentioned in one of the last few post, that I wanted to find and I found it now.

When my friend did something funny and she wanted to do it again, we all laughed it out and the lecturer looked at us to ask what have happened. We continued laughing and she stopped her performance. The lecturer thought we bullied her and laughed at her. Hahaha. Actually she wanted to perform by herself, while we just laughed at her funny actions not bullied her.

When I went home, I helped my another dear friend to find the notes he wanted and finally I found it in a cupboard. I got a lot of things want to share with him but he seemed busy therefore I just shared it here.

Such a beautiful day for me: D
When you smile, you will feel that the whole world smile back to you:)

I am sorry;(

When you did something so wrong, you apologized with the most sincere heart.
But wrong still wrong, you regretted but couldn't change anything.
It's because we couldn't travel time back.
If I could, I won't let this kind of mistake happened.
I won't let or allow myself to be bad to my friends.
I didn't mean it.
It's an accident and didn't know why it was happened. Just like that.
Perhaps this was an excuse for my mistake?!

I have never felt so regret towards something I have done.
I'm sorry. I apologized.
I knew my apology may means nothing to you but I really felt very sorry.
I'm sorry, my friend.
You may not mad and we still laughing together like usual, but I felt bad to myself.

I knew I couldn't change anything.
Mistake was mistake.
But I want to make myself remember that I can't repeat the same mistake again.
Never ever!

静一下

或许只是要与不要的问题。
如果你要，什么都不是问题。
如果你不要，再多的问题已不是你的问题。
不是吗？

要知道到底是要还是不要真的那么难吗？
我不知道。
或许我根本就没那个心去想。
不想去想，就能暂时不面对吧？！

有时就想什么都不想，自己一个人静一静。
感觉每天都没时间自己静一静，每天都好忙。
但是真的那么忙吗？
在车上听着歌曲，闭着双眼，休息着脑袋，那个时候很静，但不也想了千百个事情。
听着课时，突然魂已不再课堂时，不也依然不知不觉想着某件事情。
闭上眼看见的事或许应该完成，因为虽然选择逃避，但其实它一直存在，而自己还很在意。
逃也逃不了。

面对？！不想。
下决心，能等于承诺。
我知道我很大可能做不到，不想毁承诺。
我会对那样的自己很失望的。
什么能让我下决心呢？
能让我一想起就有动力，不管多累都不放弃的目标。
你在哪啊？

说来说去，还是要与不要的问题。
我想要，可是还没准备好。
停在想的阶段， 少了行动。
少了一点力气，一点决心，一点目标。
多了一堆借口，一堆堕落，一堆泄气。

我不是你们看到的那样！
那不是我，你们知道吗？（小声到没有出声的必要）
我们是活在别人想象里的人类。
为了所谓的“处处为你好的人”努力着不让任何人，包括自己失望。
因为他们的期望，我们也扛上了，因为爱与感激吧？!
不是迷失了自我，只是真正的自己已只是你我眼里的彼此。
在别人看来，我们还是我们和她们想象的一样过得很好；在我看来，你我跟别人看见的不同。
你我比他们看见的还真，还可爱，还快乐，虽然不同但也过得很好:D

一次性说了一堆，想了一堆。
呵呵，感觉好多。哈哈哈。
我不敢说我能做到，但我希望能快乐的做到。
这是愿望/希望，不是承诺>,<

Weird dream

I had a bad dream yesterday.
The dream was started with receiving lots of messages and images from him.
Actually I didn't managed to remember the content of those messages, but I remember he asked me to go to a place to meet with him.
And I could reached that place immediately (because it's a dream )and I asked my college friends to accompany me there.
It's a dark and scary place with lots of doors and rooms.
I felt that he wanted to discuss something serious with me. (My opinion xD )
We went into that place and walked deeper and deeper until...
I opened a door and he opened another door at the same time.
Both of the doors could reached the same room.
I saw his sad face and eyes.
When my friend tried to walk into that room, I pushed her out. Hahaha.
I closed the door.
He cried.
I was shocked because he looked very sad and he cried. OMG.
I was speechless and didn't know how to console him.
So, I woke up.
When I slept again, the dream continued. Hahaha. TT
He told me a lot of things and I am his only listener who be with him.
Actually I didn't know what he have told me, but I knew I wanted to be a good listener.
The dream ended when I woke up again.

I sent him a message and asked him whether he was okay.
Hahahaha.
The answer was he was fine.
So funny.
Weird dream.

Left Or Right

We always need to make a choice in order to solve a lot of problems.
Left or Right?
Some people choose to stay in the middle so that they won't have to decide whether is left or right.
But, I realised choosing to be at middle somehow equal to choose to give up for both of the choices.
It may ended up losing both choices.
When you tend to stay close to both sides, eventually you are choosing to give up both sides.
Is this true?
Just think about it.
You will have your own opinion, for sure.

For me, it may be true but it depends.

看不见的幸福

幸福是什么？

看不见，也摸不到。

可是自己却可以感受到它的存在。

幸福，就是那么的神奇。

满满的关心，满满的爱，就是能让一个人感觉到幸福的存在。

人，可以因许多许多的事情或人而幸福。

一切只在于你怎么看待自己所拥有的一切。

而我，非常珍惜和感激我所拥有的一切。

我不知道永远有多远，也不知道自己可以握住让我幸福的一切多久。

所以我要好好珍惜着，至少现在好好握紧。

谢谢所有在我身边的人，包括在我心里的人（没能见面的人）。

记住哦，因为有你们，我才在这。

我才在这，幸福地在这儿。

或许我们不能时常在一起，可是彼此都知道彼此在另一端好好的。

这样也不错，对吗？

我感觉到你们，你们呢？

你呢？

总之，幸福事小。

再磨蹭，你就会失去幸福多一天的机会哦。

嘿嘿嘿=3=

不可思议的事情

不可思议的事情发生了。

还是不敢相信那是真的。

因为太不可思议！！！

不知道那天（蛮特别的日子）会怎样，好害怕哦。

我很胆小的勒。

可是还是很开心！

开心，开心，我疯了。

把此事告诉他时，他好激动哦。

如果他那时在我旁边，我想我会拉着他旋转着跳吧。

哈哈哈。

我们都太激动了。

告诉家人时，他们都觉得好惊奇哦。

哈哈哈，是我吗？！不可思议耶！是我=P

告诉好朋友们时，我才告诉其中一个朋友而已。

但是才一会儿，好朋友们全都知道咯。

效率超高的耶，她们太棒了。

真的是太好笑了，我的朋友们。

哈哈哈，太爱你们了。XP

至于是什么事就不说了，总之我是个幸运儿。

是一件开心的事。^0^

Just like that

Somehow it's just a decision for your own future path.
Really nothing more.
But it's just too difficult to decide or even have the courage to think about it.

Run away is always the typical choice when people don't know how to decide.

But, we couldn't run away forever.
We still have to face the problem at the end.
Nothing change at the end as we still have to face it, right?
Just time have passed and other people have become better but we still remain the same.
While this small changes have made a huge difference.
Just like that.

单纯。简单。

很多事不需要原因。
做，就因为想做。
单纯又简单。
付出的一切，不需要让人知道。
只要能让对方开心，过程并不重要。

简简单单的。
就这样感觉快乐。

青春不等人。
要珍惜青春，不然它会悄悄地溜走的。
到时，后悔也回不去了。

其实，我说了那么多，只是要说要快乐的过每一天。
快乐的过每一天应该算过得有点意义。
虽然不算意义非凡，但至少以后回想起过去，想到的是那快乐美好的时光。

喜欢放空自己的脑袋的我，算不算浪费时间啊？！
哈哈，平时总是想点什么（大多数是没有答案的事情），然后不知不觉过了一天。
时光飞逝了TT

就好想好好握紧身边的人，好好的珍惜他们的存在。好喜欢你们，谢谢！

就好想珍惜上学的时光，不要不喜欢自己读着的一切（因为是自己的选择）。好好享受学习，不要放空脑袋了！

就这样单纯、简单的过每一天：D

弱不禁风

一不小心又生病了。
好像已经生病很多很多次了。

这次看了两次医生，浪费了两次钱。
第一次，才服用了一次药，结果敏感：（
还记得去看医生时，医生问我是不是年货吃太多才会生病的。
哈哈哈。
我的答案是才刚刚开始想要吃，就已经先生病了。
后来，他又问我是不是男朋友生病，所以我被传染了。
因为刚刚过情人节嘛。
哈哈哈，医生真可爱。

但是因为敏感，所以去看了第二次病，看另一个医生。
又拿了一堆药。
要新年了，要快快好起来。
还有很多东西想吃，还要好好享受难得的假期，不可以病着过的~T_T~
不可以！＼(゜ロ＼)(／ロ゜)／
哎哟，敏感还没好啊。
快点好！快点好！快点快点好！

草稿

突然发现自己有好多草稿哦。
很多写到一半，又没完成。
好像写到一半，却发现没有完成的意义。
算了，完成它并不是重点。
所以一个一个草稿不断诞生。
乱七八糟的。

但终于，终于放假了！
烦恼就暂时放下，繁重的功课就先隔着。
是时候更新部落格了！！！！

开心，开心，开心！
放假，放假，放假了！
虽然不是很有新年的气氛，但还是很开心。
开心，开心，开心:D

Adapt

This is the first post in 2015!!!
Recently, I'm really very busy until no time to update my blog.
I suddenly feel very tired as my day-to-day life is very tiring.
After doing the homework then have to do new homework again and again.
Listening to lecture and feel very blur about the contents again and again.

Time continue to go on without waiting anyone.
If you choose to stay at the same place, you will never get nearer to your target.
My lecturer, who teach English, have told us some of his experience last time.
I like to listen to him as I feel that when he talk, he talk with his heart.
His heart talks, not his mouth.
So real and sincere.

He have told us that adapting can considered as superpower.
We just too easy to adapt ourselves to get closer to people around us without realising it.
Adapt ourselves to have some kind of behavior even though it's not a good behavior.
Just being influenced by people surrounding us just like that.
When we realised, it's just too late and will take such a long time to get rid of those behavior which we shouldn't have.
Therefore, we must have our own discipline not to adapt to something that is not good.

Actually, we can change ourselves if we want.
The only rule to become better is have the willing to change.
I'm not sure what I can do.
But, I really hope that I can change the situation because I want to.
Adapting myself to become better.
New year, new me!

Tiring but worth it.
Fighting!!!