Reborn

I think it's the time.
It's exactly two months over.
It's the time for me to reborn.

There are two reasons that preventing people from happiness.
One is living in the past, another one is observing people.
I have been standing still for quite a while and observing other people's life.
I am an audience of people around me watching them living well with and without me.
I just wanted to keep my brain empty and do nothing.
I just wanted to spend my holiday doing nothing.
I have myself surrounded by memories which are nice and also bad.
It's ENOUGH I think.

How are you? I think you are fine.
I am fine and I should be fine too.
I am no longer in your life anymore like you are in my memories.
I am not going to live in the past anymore.
Maybe goodbye did means goodbye.
I remembered this feeling that I used to have once ago.
Keeping everything in my heart and thought it would be forgotten when time passed.
Injuries may be forgotten but it still pain.
In the end, it worsened but after that I seemed to get through. Like finally haha.
This time would be same like last time?
I wish it would.

I believe everything will be okay in the end if it's not okay then it's not the end.
Therefore, what the reason for us to think and worry about things that perhaps won't be happening?
Right?

I have to live for myself.
I am a person who want and will be studying ACCA! (copying Luffy's style :D)
I am going to start my college life again:D
Saying goodbye to my holiday and the old me haha.
Busy life, busy me.
New life, new me.

音乐相伴

以前曾很喜欢一首歌曲，真的很喜欢。
我也不懂是不是因为那个背后的故事。
就曾经很喜欢。
那个歌词和歌手都很棒。

不过后来再听见一样歌曲的感觉竟然完全不同了。
经历了不同的事情后，那歌曲怎么听都有着淡淡的悲伤。
越听越影响心情，哈哈。
那却偏偏想听，想看看自己是否会免疫。
变态心理不停作祟。

后来应该可以算免疫了吧，不是忘了那淡淡的悲伤感，而是习惯了那感觉。
就不会有太强烈的特别感了。

但其实有很多很好的音乐同样给着一样的感觉。
听着听着就能让自己处身当下，感觉自己在唱出自己的人生或感慨。
有音乐相伴不让人孤单。
静静时，烦恼时，难过时，疲累时，孤单时，任何时候都可以听一听，然后就能雨过天晴了。

有音乐真好:)

感慨地说

K了两天的歌。
今后，应该就窝在家里做条虫。
好好的过完这短暂的假期。

在这些日子里好像发生了不少事情。
其实我们都在不自不觉中不断成长。
回首看见的是陪伴着我们的朋友，家人，音乐，还有另一个自己(比自己想像中更坚强的自己)。

会留下的，终究会留下。
会离开的，终究留不了。

很珍惜认识的所有人，因为我们曾经是朋友。
不管以后如何，谢谢我们曾有的曾经。
谢谢你，曾在我回忆里。
不管回忆是好坏，我也很感激。
或许说得很牵强，但会留下的终究会留下。
我还是相信的;-)

2 more to go

This month I have to sit for four papers and pass it all to complete my foundation course.
Done 2 and 2 to go.

But, there is a bad news for one of the papers I have done.
I didn't know how to do at all.
Therefore, I sincerely think that I may fail it.
What to do? Can't do anything:/

There is 10 objective and 6 subjective in that paper.
Okay, I am not confident to my answers for those objective questions.
While the subjective one are the killing part, I really didn't know how to do it.
There was one question asking us to prove the answer.
I knew the answer should be zero.
However in the proving process, my answer came to be 10000++.
OMG I didn't have anytime to redo it and other questions still blank and waiting me to write something.
So, I simply wrote a silly conclusion.
I wrote something like the ans of 10000++ is approximately to be zero. Therefore it's proven.

What a silly answer?:P
HAHAHA.
Please. Let other questions save me.
I have to pass btw.
The results will be out two months  from now.

Fell asleep:D

In the class of our cute lecturer, I fell asleep.
Hahaha. I fell asleep.
I like him very much and also his class.
Perhaps I was too tired, therefore I felt sleepy when listened to his voice this time.
I tried my best to open my eyes and I did saw him looking at me.
I thought it should be alright and I closed my eyes a few times for rest.
I can't controlled my eyes but the way. Lol.
Then he asked us whether we understood or not like usual.
So, I nodded my head like usual too without thinking anything.
However this time his question was '*my name*, understand?
And all my other friends felt so weird since this lecturer won't asked like this usually.
Hahaha, he must be looking me sleeping there. Haha.
I was surprised by his question because suddenly got people called my name. Shocked. ~T_T~

And I just answered my friends, who asked me, that I slept just now.
Hahaha, too tired maybe:P

Break

He said maybe we can take a break.
Since we are both so busy with our own stuffs, at the same time distance is ruining this thing.
The thing which I want and try my best to maintain it well.
I can't described what is my feeling right now because I don't really know.
Not sad and not happy at the same time.
I just hope that the break will be useful for us.

Both of us are so confused but the way.
Maybe this decision may be good for us.
Perhaps we just run away or what, I also don't know.

Just have our break and continue our life;)

May

Like what she said.
We couldn't run away as we open our eyes in the morning, it is first of May.
Ya, I know.
How would this month be?
Only left this one month to study for our final exam.
Hope that our group study plan will work.
Hope that the case of studying until accidentally dreaming can be prevented.
Lol.

Can't believe that now is the May of 2015.
While I still hope that I am in 2014 at the time I just started my foundation.
2015? That means that it's almost reach the end of my foundation.
Ya, I am mentally and physically not ready for further studies yet.
But.....
I am here and time won't stop for me.
I have no choice but continue to walk.

Perhaps I need to be more positive thinking.
As the same time, I want to appreciate the friends around me because we would not be the same intake after this.
I am so happy to meet with you guys.
I am glad to having group study together and helping each other make me feel energetic.

There is one more happy news in May.
For this, my May will have a great great start.
So happy. Hehee.
Thank you!!!:D

Hope this will be a great month in 2015.